Relationships.

Is it ever safe to fall in love? No. Is it worth it every time? Absolutely.

I am seeing a girl now who opened me up to something that I didn't realize I was doing. I was afraid to fall in love again. After having your heart broken its sometimes hard to remember that it mends. I had my fair share of one night stands, and while they were fun something felt empty about it. It was hard for me to pretend that I didn't care, to pretend I wasn't jealous watching someone I really like kiss someone else. I was afraid of risking my heart and focused on loving myself. And while that is truly important to establish that relationship with yourself and take the time to love who you are becoming, its not advisable to shut others out. "We should be in the business of multiplication and addition." Gregory T Angelo once wrote in an article about inclusion for gay marriage. How do these two things connect you might ask? I was so busy loving me that I didn't realize I put up some pretty hard core walls, I was getting myself on solid ground knowing I could transition alone, but could I let someone else in to watch, to join? Hell no. I was so scared of that. She reminded me that I deserved it and not to hold this piece of myself away from my heart. (Her exact words) To those of you who have found the person you want to share your dreams, ideas and truths with I can now better understand how amazing that feels.

Here is a pic of her & I on the train ride down to Coney Island which she was excited for all week! We watched the fireworks (her idea) on the beach snuggled together on the sand and looked out across the ocean which was dark accept for the boat lights. Her warmth, kindness & love for life is insatiable. Enough of this gooey stuff, I need to be outside!